It's Time.

I need to grow up. None of what I have been doing are things that I should be doing. My heart is failing at an incredibly fast rate. Thanks to all of you, who have been trying so hard to kill me. I need to relax and conquer my fear of driving. I feel as though my life isnt going to officially start until I get my license. So that shall be my goal in the next few weeks. I have my three two hour drives this week. Nervous beyond belief. I also get my wisdom teeth pulled. Oh, damn. I also have to go take my placement tests at PCC in order to take the classes I need to finish high school. In order to succeed in all of those things I do need my license. Which is why that is my first and foremost goal. But its okay. I will remain calm and get these things done. I need to in order to learn, and grow up. It really is time. [For me to let you go.] and for me to get a better grasp on myself. No more giving whats left of my heart to people who dont deserve it.