Lately, I have been dealing with an extraordinary amount of wanting to kick everyone in the ass. To put it lightly. Im not exactly sure why I have been having this intense feeling in my chest. Well...thats a lie. I know exactly why I have been. I think its just wishful thinking to want to feel otherwise.Why in the world would anyone in their right mind want to kill a friendship of ten years...? You say it was because of me. Because we have changed so much and have nothing in common. "Because I cant be happy." Well no duh I cant be happy, I spent years walking on eggshells around you...and all for what? FOR NOTHING. Want to know what I think? I think it was because of you. Because you are the one who so brutally took advantage of my life and manipulated it into something of your liking. "Hmm, I need somewhere to go so I can party tonight, OH lets bombard into *my name shall remain unnamed*'s house regardless of how she feels about it! WOO WHOO!" Think again bitch. It doesnt work like that. I have felt so guarded around you for the past 5 months or so. I finally figured out why too. Its because you lost my trust long ago and I felt that I always had to say the right things or be a certain way for you to "accept me" in a sense. Why did I do that to myself?! I am so tired of your materialistic ways and the way that you and her try to prove me wrong. You and her eating those damn tomato sandwiches. "We lived off of these everyday after school and lax/track. hehehehe" WHO FUCKING CARES. I wont take it anymore. I dont exactly have to at this point seeing as how you so bizzleyyy threw me away. I should think of it as a favor rather than something to cry over. So thank you oh so brutal bitch.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Frustrations.
Lately, I have been dealing with an extraordinary amount of wanting to kick everyone in the ass. To put it lightly. Im not exactly sure why I have been having this intense feeling in my chest. Well...thats a lie. I know exactly why I have been. I think its just wishful thinking to want to feel otherwise.Why in the world would anyone in their right mind want to kill a friendship of ten years...? You say it was because of me. Because we have changed so much and have nothing in common. "Because I cant be happy." Well no duh I cant be happy, I spent years walking on eggshells around you...and all for what? FOR NOTHING. Want to know what I think? I think it was because of you. Because you are the one who so brutally took advantage of my life and manipulated it into something of your liking. "Hmm, I need somewhere to go so I can party tonight, OH lets bombard into *my name shall remain unnamed*'s house regardless of how she feels about it! WOO WHOO!" Think again bitch. It doesnt work like that. I have felt so guarded around you for the past 5 months or so. I finally figured out why too. Its because you lost my trust long ago and I felt that I always had to say the right things or be a certain way for you to "accept me" in a sense. Why did I do that to myself?! I am so tired of your materialistic ways and the way that you and her try to prove me wrong. You and her eating those damn tomato sandwiches. "We lived off of these everyday after school and lax/track. hehehehe" WHO FUCKING CARES. I wont take it anymore. I dont exactly have to at this point seeing as how you so bizzleyyy threw me away. I should think of it as a favor rather than something to cry over. So thank you oh so brutal bitch.
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