FUCK.

Im so sick of all of this. I didnt mean to hurt you, but what the fuck else was I to do? You took advantage of my life. Our memories were grand but the party is over. Grow up! Learn some fucking responsibility for yourself and learn to stand on your own you stupid bitch. I cant believe how long I put up with you. And then my eyes finally opened and saw all the horrible things that you do. Well FUCK this. I will not tolerate this shit. Ever, ever, ever again. You are not welcome here, nor will you be any time soon. So stop calling me, your voice is the last thing I want to hear. And Mr. Bellingham boy, think again before you flirt with yet another hoe. I KNOW what you are doing. I will not and never will come visit you just so you can fuck me and boost your own pathetic ego. Who do you think I am?! I know who I am and I have grown, I will not tolerate this bullshit anymore. I am so hurt, and angry, and just so utterly baffled with the world as to how the fuck I let all this slip past me. I WAS SUCH AN IDIOT. Fuck you, fuck lots and lots of people right now. How much can one person take?! This summer was shit, but this beginning school year just topped the cake so thank you for that meanieGAY and thizzleASS. Oh, and also fuck "YOU" D, where the hell have you been? I have been in desperate need of you, so where are you? Where the fuck are you?! In the past year, I have come to realize that I can only really trust two people out of all the people I know, and I am so incredibly in love with both of them for that. They have earned my respect and have never ONCE lost it. As for the rest of you, all of you can suck whatever it is I have left in my heart and keep it, because I dont want the memories of any of you anymore.

Jazzy Beats, and Plans.

Its odd how much of an affect music has on you. We choose what we listen to by what type of mood we are in. Lately, all I have been listening to are soft slow beats. So you would expect that to mean I am depressed or some sort of interesting calamity. When in all reality, I just love music. People judge too quickly. If a person were to be listening to screamy hatred music would you automatically expect them to be the type to hate the world? Yes you would. Sterotypes define the people that we are and could be. Athough, I have noticed that if that were the case and you were to talk to that certain hatred music person, you would come to find that they do in fact scream "fuck the world" but that certainly doesnt mean you can assume that about every individual. Anywhoville, moving on...this week is basically the turning point in my life. My plans are booked for awhile. Tuesday I have to make my final frip to PCC and make sure my last class is finalized. Wednesday, waffles! Heh heh, and driving practice. Thursday I shall be getting together with Kaipo to take my senior pictures and then more driving practice. Friday I have to go get my motha lickin license! I better pass, I need to pass, I SHALL PASS! Then after that, meaniemae will most likely come back and live with me for awhile. I think...yes. But what I really want over everything else that I could be doing, is to go visit you in washington. I am so very worried about how you are. I miss you. Anddd......that would be the end of this.